Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Stormy Weather

For the last couple of weeks I’ve been working on a novella. It is said that a novel is written during the rewriting process. With the first draft you get down the ideas, the main plotlines, sketch out the characters and their motivations. When rewriting, you flesh all of these out, and that’s when the characters, and the story, come alive.

Today I will continue working on the novella, and I’m a bit on edge. I’ve reached a part in this process where I fear the writing will be difficult, that I’m not going to know exactly how to proceed. I feel, like the characters on the page, that I’m in the middle of a storm. I need to confront my fears, repel the self-doubt lurking over me — not let myself be defeated.

I’m not sure why, though, I feel like a storm is overhead. Maybe it’s because things are going “to well”? Am I looking for a way to sabotage myself? Do I really think that I don’t deserve to have things go my way for a change? I don’t know. But I’ll keep writing and hope that this stormy weather will pass — that the sun will once again shine down on me.

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