On my blog, I write a lot about my writing and my creative journey. This
week, I thought I’d do something different and share some of my writing. In-between
my longer writing projects I’ve been experimenting with flash fiction. This is
one of those pieces.
Undercurrent
“What’s going on?” David asked, at the loud thud in the front hall,
from the living room where he was seated on the deep, oversized sofa.
Peter, standing by the front door and facing into the living room, waited
until David looked at him and then pointed at the two large suitcases
positioned on each side of him and hoped the answer would be obvious. “I think
it’s, well, er …” He gave a languid shrug. “For the best.”
David lifted himself off the sofa and joined Peter in the front hall.
They looked searchingly at each other, the way they did years ago, when love
carried the day, left them breathless. They were seven years older now. David,
thirty-six, was tall and slender, kept his head shaved and was good-looking
with his smooth caramel skin that made the staff at the neighbourhood LCBO
regularly ask him for ID. Peter’s face was a little fuller, his short reddish-brown
hair a little thinner on top, but men still chased him and his GQ-style looks.
Taller than David, Peter had a solid build but, at thirty-nine, sometimes the
lines around his ocean blue eyes got him discounts on Seniors’ Day at the drug
mart.
“For the best.” David’s voice was flat, like he was recovering after having
had the wind knocked out of him. “I don’t understand what that means.”
“What good would it do? Understanding, I mean.” Peter spoke with an
edge. “We’re long past understanding, don’t you think?”
David, clenching and unclenching his fists, tried to tamp down the
rage inside of him. They were beyond so many things, beyond themselves — for too long held
hostage in a life lacking passion, eroticism, some type of metaphysical
connection. Outside of where there was truth. Outside of themselves. Unable to
chip away at the harrowing silence that implanted itself in them, in their
hearts, and turned them away from each other and to a solitary life.
“So, I’ll …” Peter flicked his thin eyebrows. “I guess I’ll get going.”
He held his gaze to the floor as he stabbed his feet into his shoes, no longer
able to look at the man who used to make him feel buttery inside, made him
believe in love again. What had happened to him?
“Coward.” David breathed deeply. “You’re a coward.”
Peter didn’t flinch. “I’ll call you in a couple of days to figure out
the rest.”
“Your keys,” David said, not fighting the crescendo in his contralto
voice. “Go be with Brian.” David bristled when Peter looked at him again.
“What? You think I really don’t know?” He shook his head. “That’s what makes
you a coward, that you couldn’t admit that to me. Now you’re leaving … You say
we’re beyond understanding, and maybe that’s true.” He held out his hand. “When
you walk out that door, this isn’t your home anymore. You lose the right to
come and go as you please. So, your keys.”
Peter, staring intently into those round brown eyes that both excited
and terrified, swallowed hard. Giving back his keys took away his options, cut
him completely loose from the one person he knew had, no matter what, loved him
unconditionally. Why wasn’t that enough? Rolling his thin, pursed pink lips,
Peter pulled his keys out of his pocket, slid the two square-topped keys off
his key ring and placed them in the palm of David’s warm hand. Peter said,
“David, I’m —”
“You’re sorry?” David raised an eyebrow. “As if that could possibly
mean anything now.” He went and opened the door, his eyes trained on Peter, who
picked up his suitcases and rushed out of the house.
Peter was gone. The life David had built with him shattered. In the
new silence, David knew he was the one who had let it all slip away. By letting
the silence rule them, by being, in his own right too cowardly by not going to
where there was truth, hadn’t David shoved Peter towards the door and out of
his heart? David set the keys down on the oak occasional table in the hall,
picked up the phone and dialled.
“What do you want, David?” the deep voice boomed into the line.
“Ty …” David drawled, curbing his urge to laugh. He and Ty were
friends since university who studied law together. Ty was never one for
niceties, never believed in their importance. “Just because my name appears on
the call —”
“What do you want?”
“He’s gone. It’s over. Really over.” There was a silence. “Isn’t that
what you’ve been waiting all these years to hear?”
A couple of months before Peter had appeared on the scene, Ty and
David had been lovers. David grew frustrated waiting for Ty to accept himself,
couldn’t date a guy ashamed of being gay. When Ty finally stopped running from
himself, Peter had already swept David off his feet. David and Ty had managed
to hang on to their friendship, even when it meant sidestepping the
undercurrent of desire constantly smouldering beneath the surface.
“So he’s gone,” Ty said. “What does that mean?”
“It means …” David bit down on his lower lip. “I’ll leave the front
door unlocked and wait for you in the bedroom. Don’t make me wait too long.”
Click.
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