As the Labour Day weekend
approaches, it seems like summer is spent. Soon enough schools, universities
and colleges will be overflowing with students eager (or not) to resume their
studies. Cafeterias and lunch rooms will be bubbling over with conversations
and laughter as colleagues share the stories of their summer adventures. Traffic
on Toronto’s roads will once again be nightmarish, packed with commuters — some impatient, others
distracted as they text or update their Facebook status — attempting to navigate around all of the
construction.
Summer may be spent, but for me
it was a good summer. I took some much-needed time to recharge, to focus on
what matters, to get back to the core of things. This has been a year when I have
struggled to remain focused, to not let procrastination run rampant over my
life. I have felt pulled —
by work, familial engagements, personal and professional goals — in a thousand
directions. It became necessary for
me to step back and regain control over my life.
So I went back to the goals that I
had set for myself at the beginning of the year (blog post “2014: My Year of
Positivity”)
and assessed my progress. My heart sank. I didn’t feel like I had made as much
progress as I had hoped because my concentration had slipped away. It wasn’t as
though I hadn’t done anything all year, I just didn’t want to acknowledge that I’m
not a superhero. Despite the high expectations I set for myself, I can’t do
everything I set out to do in a day, I can’t be all to everyone. I had to set priorities,
and so I gave myself just one goal for the summer: finish the rewrite of the
novel I’ve been working on since February by the end of the summer.
Whenever I had time, I wrote. On a
short layover in London or Zürich or Tel Aviv, I wrote. First thing in the
morning, I wrote. On the subway, I wrote. As my partner took his shower before
bed, I wrote. All of a sudden the discouragement and disappointment that had
plagued me earlier —
that had almost succeeded at breaking my spirit — was peeled away.
I finished the rewrite of my
novel on Sunday, 24 august 2014, and I’m still riding high on that. I have
spent my summer doing what it is that I love to do: writing. And with writing
at the top of my daily to-do list, there seems to be ample time for so many
other things: visits with friends from Yellowknife and Ottawa, a day at the
CNE, an exploration of the French culinary tradition. Doing what I love to do,
life is grand.
These past couple of months,
while I’ve been silent on my blog, have been about me restoring my writer’s
foundation. A daily quota of words. Letting my desire to write carry me. Remaining
disciplined. Maintaining my commitment to the craft. Being patient. Always having
in my sights the long-term view.
Seated at my tiny bistro table on
my even tinier balcony that offers up a view of the Gardiner Expressway and
Lake Ontario, I write, and I am reminded that (as my own literary journey has
shown) there are seasons of drought and seasons of abundance. My job is to
write daily, to not settle for mere fiction — to make it the best writing that I can.
And wherever I find myself, I will
remain positive. I will keep writing, keep submitting, and hold steadfast and
stubbornly to my dreams. I have laid the foundation, and now is the time to
build upon it.
Good for you! I am so proud of you for all your hard work!
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