A few weeks ago I returned to
Sherbrooke (Quebec) after a four-month absence. I had left Sherbrooke (the
place that I called “home” since January 2010) in mid-February, and I had no
choice but to, finally, head back there since my lease expired at the end of
June. I chose mid-June to go back to Sherbrooke and pack up my apartment in
order to avoid the mayhem that overtakes Quebec on July 1. While the rest of
the country celebrates Canada Day, July 1 is “Moving Day” in Quebec, as so aptly demonstrated by recent Best Buy
ads.
I returned to Sherbrooke carrying
a certain anxiousness for things past as much as for things to come. In accepting
a new job, I had no choice but to leave Sherbrooke and relocate to Toronto. When
I first left in mid-February, I thought that I would have time to go back to
Sherbrooke from time to time, but a combination of circumstances and a lack of
desire kept me first in Montréal and then in Toronto.
Living in Sherbrooke had been a
time of renewal and rejuvenation. I had taken the time to recharge my batteries
per se, focus on a couple of artistic projects and see them through to
completion. Living in Sherbrooke, I came to a better understanding of my artist
self; I was able to finally see my worth. Leaving Sherbrooke ended up feeling
like a sort of cleansing, as if I were disconnecting from a past life and
entering into a new one.
Part of that cleansing involved
selling off a number of items —
fridge, stove, washer, dryer, sofa, end tables, dining room table and chairs, bedroom
set, lamps, etc. The woman looking after my cats during my absence had
graciously volunteered to sell those items for me. When I arrived in Sherbrooke
the house was, for all intent and purposes, empty. My four cats had found new, loving
homes, so all that remained were boxes, my desk, two armchairs, my artwork and
my piano. And all of that went into storage.
For the first time in a long
time, I felt whole —
that the risks I had taken were finally beginning to pay off. I was living on
my own terms, walking by faith. I was … I am doing as Goethe encouraged us, to “Dream
no small dreams for they have no power to move the hearts of men.”
Leaving Sherbrooke was a
beginning as much as an end. Perhaps, and most important of all, Sherbrooke was
just the place marking where two roads diverged and, after much messing about, I
was compelled to take “the road less traveled by.” And, for me, that has make all the difference.
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